I have my usual stress in my life and I get about 7 hours
sleep a night. I watch my portions and
try to eat right (90% of the time) …..why can’t I lose weight!!!! ???? I am so
depressed with this situation.
My weight has always defined me since my birth—I know I
shouldn’t let it but it does. My Mom was
always on me about my weight. She never
had a weight problem. My friends were
always critical of weight, not directly to me but they were so focused on it
that I felt it was about me. My
ex-husband made me throw up what I ate when I went over 128 pounds. Needless to say, I was bulimic.
I have tried so many diets and lost for awhile but the
weight came back. My story over and
over.
A couple of weeks ago, I caught a glimpse of myself in the
mirror in the locker room at the pool. I
was so disgusted with the image in the mirror.
Depression set in quickly. I can’t
shake it. I went to see my doctor and he
told me that some people at my age can’t lose weight. Ugh, double kick in the stomach. Age and
weight. Part of me wanted to show him I
could but the bigger part of me was defeated.
So, what to do? Well,
I am not giving up my exercise routines.
My heart and bones are better for it.
I am strong even though I am huge.
Most of that is muscle. I have my
dad’s shape—thanks, Dad. Why couldn’t I
get Mom’s shape? She gave me Nana’s
wings—my arms are huge and it doesn’t matter if I am 128 pounds or 182—they are
the same measurement.
I am so discouraged.
I am continuing watching what I eat because if I threw in the towel, I
would be much fatter.
Today, I swam, my workout stats below. Not bad since I ran in the pool for 300
yards. Running is hard to do and takes
longer than swimming but it seems to be doing my knee good and gives me a
harder workout. My SWOLF score is not
good but that is due to my slower running laps.
SWOLF is the time it takes to swim a lap plus the number of strokes it
takes to do a lap. Usually mine is
50-60. Now I ignore this figure. My goal is to get to 500 yards running in addition to
my 1100 yards each day I swim.
Distance:
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1,275 yd
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Pool Length:
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25 yd
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Time:
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44:30
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Avg Pace:
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3:27 min/100 yd
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Calories:
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276 C
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Avg SWOLF
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72
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